Emotionsoflife & Mimosa Pudica

The incapacity to continue living was growing

The WILL to continue the never-ending battle was slowing.

The gloomy haze was clouding my judgment

I felt ready to face my final judgment.

The thought was getting stronger

I couldn’t stop the urge any longer.

Looking down at the people below

No longer grasping their flow

On top of this roof I felt so cold

An emptiness nobody told

Could ever overwhelm

My core, my soul

Lost without a goal

ready to leave the realm

Complex questions started to possess my understanding

Looking down on them, I didn’t understand

“Why I feel this way and they did not?

Why are my thoughts and emotions full of knots?

Do they feel like I do now?

Do they have the courage to end it all, like I?”

So now I cry.

Through my tears the crowd became undefinable

The pain, the loneness undeniable

“Is it courage to end it all?

Will I feel enlightened during my fall?”

The sun and moon exchanged light

Surrounded by darkness and silence

My Inner-Child screaming to fight

“Bravery comes with reliance!”

Dare I to trust?

“Come to us, in here you will no longer crawl.”

The torment of their offerings were tempting my soul

I was getting determined to jump.

“Wait,” a soft childish voice said

“I hurt too, but I endure.”

I looked everywhere, but nobody was there

I realized the voice was coming from within.

My skin tingled, my feet started to move away

Away from the edge of the roof

still yearning for proof

I could hear my heart beating

“Was my Inner-Child cheating?

Should I come back another day?”

Moonlight fading, the soft voice became stronger

With the rising of the sun the desire no longer

to end it all, my soul hurting still

hope aroused slightly, so I WILL

again try to fight

At least until

the next night

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Emotionsoflife  &  Mimosa Pudcia